Bliss Before Surgery

Thank you Daddy!
Retreat before my next surgery.

Song Of My Struggle

https://vimeo.com/49210580

Bone Broth

Recently, a loved one has suffered multiple broken bones and surgery.  I was lucky enough to be able to assist in the recovery.  I had remembered a recipe that I was taught about a fantastic healing tool, bone broth.

Takes lots of hours to get the nourishing factors out of the bones, but it's so worth it.

http://nourishedkitchen.com/bone-broth/

Slow Down

Sometimes the Universe has cleaver ways to tell you to slow down.

If you don't slow down, you won't see the love that is right in front of you all along.

A Little Bit North

Well, we moved a bit north.  It's a little calmer and less hectic for us.  And I found a favorite morning place for coffee and peace.  (I must work on my French)





You have to find your peace where you can.
And enjoy some of what life gives you.

Yummers!

Two Shots of Happy and One of Sad

Happy, because of a recent trip to the doctor's had positive results, and feeling fine.  Happy, because of my latest surprise that came with a professional picture hanger.

Clyde Butcher Photo

My love saw me spending lots of time looking at it in a gallery in Palm Beach.  How lucky am I?

So sad because one of my favorite places is in grave danger with a wildfire closing in.

I love Hailey and Ketchum, Idaho and I pray for our friends and fire fighters who are dealing with this crisis currently.

Loving The Summertime

Just returned from a 3 week journey all around.  Cape Cod then off to Sorrento, Italy.  Luckily with some new medication, and some good sunshine, my health has held up quite well.

4th of July in Hyannisport

My lemons in Sorrento

A Fo-hawk to look like Daddy

So far summer has been a dream.
Hopefully we will not have any complications from the incoming tropical storm Dorian.
Finger's crossed.

Annual Philanthropic Trip

With school out it's time for our annual philanthropic trip.  This year we head back to Idaho and deliver a custom made falconry hood from the UK to the World Center For Birds of Prey.
http://www.peregrinefund.org/visit

And made one more contribution to a scholarship organization.

Then off to a friend's ranch in Hailey, Idaho.

Pure heaven....

Only 1 week, then back home due to I was very fatigued and feeling ill.

Time for a visit to the Dr.'s and rest.

HPV and Cancer

Michael Douglas discussed his battle with throat cancer in an interview with The Guardian newspaper, in which doctors raised the point that some throat cancers can be caused by a sexually transmitted virus, HPV, related to cervical cancer.

But Douglas' spokesperson has rebutted the newspaper's headline saying that oral sex caused his cancer. The spokesperson said that the article simply included discussion of oral sex as a suspected cause of certain oral cancers.

USA TODAY asked cancer experts to explain HPV's role in oral cancer and other diseases.

Yes, HPV causes lot's of different cancer's.  People have to be honest about their HPV, unlike my ex husband.  I should have questioned that "mole" he said he had since he was a child.

http://www.usatoday.com/story/news/health/2013/06/03/hpv-causes-a-growing-number-of-oral-cancers/2383013/

Happy Mother's Day

It truly is a miracle!  Never really thought I would get the chance to become a mother and I'm forever grateful. ;)

Senseless Pain

For so many years we watched the Boston Marathon from the Beacon Street house.  Since the little man has school, we have not gone in years.  So many good memories, and I hope in the future we don't fill our hearts with the terrible events of this year.

I pray for the people and families affected by these events.

Boston is my home and I am forever a part of it.

http://onefundboston.org/

Massachusetts Governor Deval Patrick and Boston Mayor Tom Menino have announced the formation of The One Fund Boston, Inc. to help the people most affected by the tragic events that occurred in Boston on April 15, 2013.

To send a check by mail:
One Fund Boston, Inc.
800 Boylston Street #990009
Boston, MA 02199         

Happy Easter

The Keys

So very lucky to have my love with us for our Easter holiday :)

 Very mild and peaceful day at the resort.  We almost felt isolated compared to the many, many people in the keys this weekend.

There is the "old man" on paddle board.

Enjoy your family this Easter... I know I love every special time we can be together as a family.

Wondering why good days and bad days...

Most days are good and then there is the bad day.  Very bad day.   It makes you wonder why today?  Why now?  Is it what I ate?  How I slept?  The weather?

With cancer there may not be an answer.  You could spend so many hours wondering why and come up empty.

Just take the good days and go with it!

That's my answer...

Sunshine + positive people = heeling

Loving these lounges while my boy plays in the sand.  So peaceful and relaxing.

Watching this little one catch some waves. Amazing!

Feeling good on the paddle board

To Miami

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Time for a change and to be on the beach.
Off to Miami we go for life, love and treatment.

Always loved Miami and my son's Daddy loves to visit and can do for long periods of time.

So lots of fun in the sun.  And the dock is one of my favorite places!  

Ever since I was a little girl, I loved being by the boats and fishing right off the dock.

Favorite Doctors there also.  Can't wait!

Talking it out with friends

How can a friends words make me so angry discussing my situation and so satisfied at the same time?  Well, that's my friend Henry.  What a special surprise visit to Austin. 

Thanks for talking till 3am, by the fire and killing several bottles of wine.  Always there to let me talk it out and I'll always be there to make BLT's at 2am.

Answers from God?

Many people pray and wait for answers to come from God.  These are important prayers and answers affecting careers, and changes in our life that affect our families and loved ones.

I am not against organized religion, many people have it in there lives and it gives them comfort and structure.  
My rant has to do with one person in particular who will ask for "selective" guidance from Church and God and may be ignoring what messages to attempt to make a wrong, right.

You can wish that chapter of your life will disappear, and your damage will fade away.  But it won't.

A simple apology for a hateful act, admission of what was done was wrong.  And a concern for the medical condition that I continue to battle would suffice.

Perhaps at a weekly Bible study, or Church visit it may don on you that this would be the right thing to do?

I am sending my request (or prayer) to the Universe (or God) that this may occur.

Cannot Be Erased

Our dear friend, Lance has been battered and beaten by the USADA.  And finally he is finished.
Frankly, we do not blame him and don't believe it is an admission of guilt.
He's just done...
And we know who won those titles.  Cannot be erased!

http://www.kvue.com/news/Lance-Armstrong-to-speak-in-Austin-Thursday-169609256.html

Keep up the great work with the foundation, friend!

BTW, the lake is full :)

Waiting for Karma?

As Deepak Chopra writes:  "A very simple way to interpret karma is that it is conditioned response, the past influencing the circumstances of the present as well as our tendencies to act in conditioned patterns of behavior. We become bundles of conditioned reflexes constantly triggered by people and circumstances into predicted outcomes. Hence karma is considered to be a prison, a bondage. The goal of the spiritual journey is to escape the prison of karma and bring about the true response of our soul which is creativity. The more creative and unpredictable our response to the world, the more we are aligned with the creator of the universe. That’s why the freedom that arises from transcending karma is referred to as liberation or moksha. In knowing our true essence beyond time, space, and causality, we become free of the wheel of samsara."

Read more: http://blog.beliefnet.com/intentchopra/2009/02/karma.html#ixzz22JqIbCpB

You could say that karma plays like a computer game that continues to direct, limit, and reinforce our choices based on our past decisions. Time plays out like a wheel, going around and around, repeating the same patterns again and again.

Well, it's hard to wait for karma when you keep dealing with the health issues caused by another person.  

I look at this man and he is successful in business and is happily married with children.  When we were together he was struggling to find out his dharma (lifework), and had many demons to heal with mentally.  Now he is a very vocal Christian, and church goer.

From pictures it seems like the perfect family.  He seems untouched by what has gone on and currently going on.  

A dear friend decided to contact him during my last round of treatment and there was no response.  So she did contact his current wife.  She was kind, but seemed to buy his version of events.  Did not comment on the letter of blackmail he sent to my family members.  

My friend was wondering what his reaction would be to my medical condition.  That was her first intention.  After no response, she told a cautionary tale to the current wife about the cancer and blackmail letter.  

No response after that.

Very hard to wait for Karma while trying to battle cancer.

Helpful website full of resources and support
http://www.nccc-online.org/