Talking it out with friends

How can a friends words make me so angry discussing my situation and so satisfied at the same time?  Well, that's my friend Henry.  What a special surprise visit to Austin. 

Thanks for talking till 3am, by the fire and killing several bottles of wine.  Always there to let me talk it out and I'll always be there to make BLT's at 2am.

HPV - Sometimes for many years

So true....HPV can last and be contagious for many years.  It all depends on your immune system and the ability to fight it off.
This makes it very important to disclose your condition.
Just because the doctor froze them off with cryotherapy, does not mean the std is gone.
Hmm.  Makes me wonder if the ex disclosed his condition with his current wifey.
Oh, it's okay.  He will just go to church on Sunday and be forgiven.  Right?
That's how it works....

Not for me...I believe in Karma.

Peace Y'all

Answers from God?

Many people pray and wait for answers to come from God.  These are important prayers and answers affecting careers, and changes in our life that affect our families and loved ones.

I am not against organized religion, many people have it in there lives and it gives them comfort and structure.  
My rant has to do with one person in particular who will ask for "selective" guidance from Church and God and may be ignoring what messages to attempt to make a wrong, right.

You can wish that chapter of your life will disappear, and your damage will fade away.  But it won't.

A simple apology for a hateful act, admission of what was done was wrong.  And a concern for the medical condition that I continue to battle would suffice.

Perhaps at a weekly Bible study, or Church visit it may don on you that this would be the right thing to do?

I am sending my request (or prayer) to the Universe (or God) that this may occur.

Waiting for Karma?

As Deepak Chopra writes:  "A very simple way to interpret karma is that it is conditioned response, the past influencing the circumstances of the present as well as our tendencies to act in conditioned patterns of behavior. We become bundles of conditioned reflexes constantly triggered by people and circumstances into predicted outcomes. Hence karma is considered to be a prison, a bondage. The goal of the spiritual journey is to escape the prison of karma and bring about the true response of our soul which is creativity. The more creative and unpredictable our response to the world, the more we are aligned with the creator of the universe. That’s why the freedom that arises from transcending karma is referred to as liberation or moksha. In knowing our true essence beyond time, space, and causality, we become free of the wheel of samsara."

Read more: http://blog.beliefnet.com/intentchopra/2009/02/karma.html#ixzz22JqIbCpB

You could say that karma plays like a computer game that continues to direct, limit, and reinforce our choices based on our past decisions. Time plays out like a wheel, going around and around, repeating the same patterns again and again.

Well, it's hard to wait for karma when you keep dealing with the health issues caused by another person.  

I look at this man and he is successful in business and is happily married with children.  When we were together he was struggling to find out his dharma (lifework), and had many demons to heal with mentally.  Now he is a very vocal Christian, and church goer.

From pictures it seems like the perfect family.  He seems untouched by what has gone on and currently going on.  

A dear friend decided to contact him during my last round of treatment and there was no response.  So she did contact his current wife.  She was kind, but seemed to buy his version of events.  Did not comment on the letter of blackmail he sent to my family members.  

My friend was wondering what his reaction would be to my medical condition.  That was her first intention.  After no response, she told a cautionary tale to the current wife about the cancer and blackmail letter.  

No response after that.

Very hard to wait for Karma while trying to battle cancer.

All The Good Things

So very lucky to have my son who is a healthy, active, inquisitive 6 year old.

So very lucky to have my soul mate who has been there to support me spiritually and financially during my treatment and is responsible for the conception of my son.  He insisted I freeze my eggs before my first round of treatment and has provided for each and every need.

So very lucky to have my family, who has not agreed with all my decisions, but supports me still.

So very lucky to have met the HH, Dalai Lama.  A beautiful, funny man that made me feel at peace :)